18. They kissed.
Bruno looked at me confused but he smiled at her afterwards. She laughed at me. ‘Alissa, wauw, you are so beautiful! All grown up.’ Bruno awkwardly scratched his head. I hugged her again ‘I missed you so much, I have so many questions.. I know you are the only one who he talks to.’ I said. Bruno has no idea I called my grandma up to talk to John for me. I feel bad, I should’ve told him. But I didn’t know she would be here so soon. She smiled at Bruno. ‘And who are you handsome?’ she asked. Bruno chuckled. ‘I’m Bruno’ He said smiling shaking her hand. ‘Oh nice! Are you her friend?’ she asked. Oh god grandma. Bruno giggled his manly giggle again. ‘Yeah we’re very good friends’ Bruno said winking at me. ‘I don’t understand’ she said pushing back her glasses to her nose. ‘He’s my boyfriend.’ I said. ‘Another one?’ She replied quickly. Bruno started to laugh. ‘Yeah, but I’m the keeper’ he said full of confidence. He should be that confident. Goof. She smiled at him. ‘You seem like an okay guy.’ He sighed ‘I will never be good enough for her though.’ I looked at him. ‘Yes you are. More than enough.’ Bruno looked down and quickly looked up again looking at my grandma. ‘Come in’ he said giving her a welcoming smile. We talked for hours. About John, about my relationship with Bruno, where he stands in life, What his goals are. If I’m still okay. How Joelle is doing. Bruno was being so sweet, he was being the most respectful guy I have ever met. He really respects the elderly and he is actually interested in what my grandma has to say, but I think he is because she is talking to him about all the highlights in my life, like the good things that have happened to me. ‘She won the Hawaiian ballet competition?’ He said with an amazed voice. My grandma nodded. ‘It’s all about emotion. And with everything she has been through it just fits perfectly. When she dances you could feel the pain or the happiness. Some people don’t get the art of dance. Even the dancers themselves, and that’s what everyone respected in Alissa. She was so young but her dance was more than a performance, It took you to every single place of the world. It was truly amazing. ’ My grandma was so wise and sweet. She took my hand while saying those last words. I was in the middle of them two. Bruno was on my left side and my grandma on my right. I could see Bruno look at me at some moments to see my reaction of what she was telling him. He knew a lot of things, but he never really got the details to it. Bruno smiled ‘Yeah, she is passionate with everything she does’ PRICK! He is lucky my grandma is over 80’s or else she would’ve understood what he was talking about. I lightly kicked him while smiling at my grandma. This man only knows sex. Sex and Music. Bruno chuckled. ‘I don’t get the youth.’ My grandma said. Me and Bruno cracked up. ‘It’s good that you don’t Felicia.’ Bruno said. ‘Well isn’t that right’ she said taking a sip of her coffee. I was already dressed up. I took the time that Bruno and my grandma got to know each other in a positive way, because sometimes they forgot I was here so I just sneaked out and got ready. ‘Alissa sweetheart have you told him about your little fieldtrip to that how do they call it..uhm a club?’ My eyes widened ‘Grandma don’t’ I said. Bruno got interested and he looked at me. ‘No she hadn’t’ he said smiling at me. I closed my eyes and buried my face in the pillow that was on my lap. Bruno chuckled. ‘Alissa and Joelle once sneaked out of my house in the middle of the night, I guess to some club. And I got a call at 3 AM from the police department telling me that they had 2 girls called Alissa and Joelle in there’ Bruno’s eyes widened. ‘ Baby what did you do?’ He said sounding all dramatic. I glared at him. ‘ Just wait for it’ My grandma continued ‘They both got drunk and got in a fight with two other girls who oddly were twins as well.’ ‘The blond bitches.’ I said. Bruno started cracking up. ‘ Drunk?’ he said still laughing. ‘ HEY! I was totally aware of what was happening.’ I said. He put his arm around me. ‘ You bad little thang.’ He said still chuckling it off. ‘ How did you get in a fight with them Alicia? You never told.’ My grandma asked. ‘Well, I..I have no idea.’ Bruno scoffed. ‘ I was totally aware of what was happening’ he said mocking me while imitating my voice. I glared at him and he smiled at me with his dimples showing. He kissed my lips softly and looked at me ‘You know you love me’ he said smiling again. ‘Sadly I do. Yes.’ Ugh. Sarcasm is my best friend. He chuckled again. He is just so cute, I know my grandma is starting to think that too. I think she is finally starting to realize that he is not just some guy to me. He is THE guy to me. People have seen me fall in love and get my heart broken. It hurt her the most to see me suffocate myself in relationships. What she doesn’t know is that I just wanted to be loved in every way possible. But I never felt what love was until I met Bruno. ‘Bruno, I am starting like you more than I did my own husband.’ She said. Bruno chuckled. ‘ Well I feel honored.’ This relationship with him is getting to perfect by the second. I know something has to go wrong somehow, someday. I just hope that I’m wrong in every single way that is possible. Now Joelle is starting to let her doubts about Bruno go, I am starting to get them. It’s crazy. And all of these unwanted feelings haunt me everywhere I go. Every time I look at him I see something that makes me happy. Something I want to be around forever. But I’m also so vulnerable when it comes to him. Cause if our relationship will end, I already know that it would hurt more than anything else in this world could hurt me. We are drawn to each other. And I like that but it has it’s bad points. Since the day we met we were starting to get inseparable. And till’ this day we are. We haven’t spend a day without each other. And I think that if he blows up as an artist we would have a really hard time not seeing each other as much as we did before. I honestly think we need to take things slow before our love ends up hurting ourselves. I have to talk to him. Tonight.
Bruno’s Mind @ Alissa’s place 2.30 PM
Alissa and her Grandma left to have lunch. I decided not to go with them cause I need to talk to Joelle. There are some things Alissa is not telling me, cause she doesn’t want me to get worried or hurt or whatever. I got my keys and opened the door. Yes I have a key of the house, we exchanged house keys. I have one of hers and she has one of mine. Joelle was cool with it. I opened the door and I hear music play. Haters everywhere we go, haters everywhere we go, haters everywhere we go, haters going down for the count. B.o.B. Damn I love this guy. He sounds amazing. Me and Phil have been jamming on a track for a while now and we hope we can get him to rap the parts that need to be raped. Excuse me rapped. I walk into the living room and I see Joelle painting her nails on the couch. ‘Don’t get any nail polish stains on that thing. It looks expensive’ she was shocked as she saw me. ‘ JESUS, YOU SCARED THE FUCK OUT OF ME!’ She yelled. I chuckled. She got up and hugged me. ‘ How are yah?’ she asked. ‘same old. How about you?’ she nodded. ‘same.’ She cleared her throat. ‘So what brings you here? Alissa was with you.’ ‘ I have to ask you some things.’ She looked at me. ‘ Go on.’ ‘ I feel like Alissa is hiding something from me and you know she is.’ I said. Her lips were pursed. ‘ Like what’ I knew she was playing dumb. ‘You told me that things happened to her back in Hawaii, what kind of things.’ Joelle looked down. ‘Don’t tease me.’ I said. ‘You know that it’s better if I know now.’ She looked at me. ‘Let’s take a walk.’ I nodded. She grabbed her purse and put on her shoes. We were walking on the boulevard. Joelle tied her hair together and put her sunglasses on. I also had my RayBans on. All of the sudden she started to talk. ‘Alissa has always been very protective of me. And I am of her of course but.. one day we were walking home from high school. We were laughing and joking around and we actually didn’t want to go back home. We were getting lunch together. My dad had a lot of friends. They knew what he was doing to us. His friends were everywhere. We tried to avoid them as much as possible but they are like little spies to my dad. We sat down at this Italian place and we ordered our food. The waiter looked very similar to a friend of my dad’s but I wasn’t sure. When I went inside to pay for our food they locked me inside.’ Joelle stopped walking and looked down. I looked at her. ‘Hey..it’s okay..you know you are safe here.’ I said wiping a tear away. She sniffed. ‘Sorry’ She started walking again. She is so tough. I see so much of her in Alissa. They are exactly the same only their looks are different. And the looks aren’t even THAT different. ‘The waiter WAS my dad’s friend he told me that he was allowed to do things to me. He tried to touch me but I tried to fight him. Alissa was probably wondering what took me so long so she walked inside. I don’t know how but she found me. The waiter was gone and I was just so scared. She tried to hush me and we tried to get out but the door was locked. I sat down in a corner of the room and started to sob. Alissa was trying to open the door in every way possible but she couldn’t. The man walked in and I heard Alissa and him talk for a while. It was like they were negotiating something but I couldn’t hear what they were saying. After that night I haven’t seen Alissa in years.’ My eyes widened and I stopped her from walking. ‘ What happened to her?’ She looked down. ‘ I don’t know. She never talks about it. Whenever I bring up the subject she stops me from talking about it or she just walks away. We got in a huge fight about it. Bruno I am telling you the truth. I want to know so badly you have no idea! It’s just that..I can’t force her into anything. She doesn’t want to tell me and I don’t know why. Maybe you should ask her. She keeps telling me that she is fine and everything is okay. But I know she is lying to me. Bruno you are the only one that makes her happy these days. Even after all we have been through she keeps hiding stuff from me and I don’t know what to do about it. I am scared to leave her alone.’ We sat down on a bench. It took me a while to realize how heavy this all was. I tried to talk but I couldn’t. I have no words for what happened. And I don’t even know everything that has happened. ‘..I..’ She sighed. ‘ You don’t have to say anything Bruno..It’s okay.’ She said leaning her head on my shoulder. I put my arm around her.
‘I just feel so helpless when It comes to her Bruno, I want to help her but she doesn’t let me. She was different after the car crash, In a good way. Like she forgot. Like her brain erased that part of her life. It seriously seems like she forgot. Bruno that is partly because of you, thanks to you she is acting normal again..’ I looked straight forward. ‘She always seems so happy.’ Joelle sighed. ‘She hides it. You know I didn’t even like you in the beginning, but you were making her happy so it was okay with me. When I started to realize you are way different then all the other idiots she dated, I liked you. Your personality just suits Alissa’s, Funny, idiotic.. and stubborn as hell.’ I chuckled ‘I am stubborn. I like things my own way, or else I won’t understand’ Joelle laughed ‘Oh yeah! I forgot to mention STUPID.’ ‘HEY! Alissa is very, very smart. And you forgot sexy.’ Joelle got her head of my shoulder. ‘I get that Alissa is the sexy one cause you know, we are family but.. I don’t see how “sexy” suits you.’ I cracked up ‘Why thank you!’ I looked her in her eyes. ‘Kidding!’ I winked at her. ‘So you DO think I’m sexy.’ ‘mmmm I’ve seen better’ she said mocking me. ‘Oh come on! I’m hot. Look at me’ She chuckled and got up looking at me like she was studying me. ‘Take of the hat’ she said. I did as I was told. She ruffled my hair with her hands. ’Stop touching the gold woman’ I ducked away. She laughed at me. ‘Better.’ I chuckled ‘So now I pass the test?’ I got up facing her. ‘Nehh, You always have.’ ‘See I knew you couldn’t resist this’ I said giving her the sex look. She laughed ‘Come on! STOP people are watching. ‘Are you embarrassed by me?’ I asked dramatically. ‘Yes very much’ I wanted to irritate the fuck out of her for some reason so I started singing in the middle of the street. ‘Beautiful Girls, All over the world. I could be chasin’ but my time would be waisted. They got nothing on you baby! Nothing on you baby! People stared at me, some of them clapped, some of them nodded at me. Some of them just looked at me like I was crazy. And then there was Joelle. ‘You are just..crazy. fuck you.’ We laughed. ‘It sounded so good though! What song was it?’ She asked. ‘My own little diddy. I wrote it in the studio yesterday.’ We were walking again. ‘Amaaazing! For..deaf people.’ My eyes widened ‘TAKE THAT BACK!’ I said. She shook her head and started laughing. She started to run away and I chased her. ‘take it back Joelle, I promise I won’t hurt you when you do!’ she shook her head again. ‘Over my dead body.’ I caught her. ‘HA, Now take it back.’ I said. ‘NO!’ she said laughing. She turned around facing me. We looked each other in the eyes and before we knew, our lips touched.
Alissa’s Mind @ Home 6.43 PM
It has been a long day. Me and my grandma went out to lunch, after that I went looking for some jobs. I think I got one. I’m going to give ballet lessons, in my own way of course, I hated the woman that commanded me to do everything I couldn’t do. I’ll be nice to the 12 to 16 year olds. I’ve been home for an hour and a half by now. I got pizza on the way home cause I didn’t feel like cooking. I took a shower and sat on the couch watching tv in my sweatpants and my hair tied up. I was drinking tea cause I already ate. It’s kind of my ritual to drink tea after I had my diner. I don’t know why. I’m weird like that. I was also thinking about how I was going to approach Bruno when I see him. I have no idea how to tell him that we need to take things slower. I heard the door open and I heard 2 people argue. I put my tv on mute and listened closely to what they were saying. ‘It was a mistake. You know that’ Bruno said. ‘I know that but I’m not telling her.’ Joelle cleared her throat. ‘Well me neither.’ Bruno sighed. ‘Then we just forget. It never happened.’ ‘whatever you want.’ I frowned. What the hell are they talking about? They walked in the living room and both looked shocked to see me there on the couch still frowning with one eyebrow with my tea in my left hand and the remote in the other one. ‘Tell me what.’ I said dryly. ‘Not you.’ Bruno said trying to brush me off. ‘I’m not born yesterday. And she’s proof of that.’ I said pointing at Joelle with the remote. I put my cup on the salon table and looked at them. ‘Whatever’ I said. I got up and walked to the kitchen. I can’t stand people at this point. No matter who it is. ‘Grandma said Hi.’ Joelle looked at me frowning. ‘She’s here?’ I nodded and leaned on the kitchen table looking at them standing there all awkwardly. I felt so powerful at this point knowing that they are hiding something from me. I was still looking at them with the same look I had on my face when they walked in but without the frowning. ‘I gotta get going’ Bruno eventually said. ‘I need to talk to you..’ the words just slipped from my mouth as I was thinking about saying it, but I didn’t want to say them. Bruno looked at me. ‘Okay sweetie, here or..in your room?’ ‘room’ I replied. He nodded and we walked away. Joelle was already on the phone with Jamareo as we walked off. I closed the door behind me and Bruno sat down on my bed. ‘What’s the matter?’ he asked. ‘We are’ He looked shocked hearing that. ‘B..baby what do you mean?’ He got up. I was standing right in front of him closing my eyes with my arms crossed trying to fight the tears. ‘Alissa, what did I do?’ I heard pain in his voice. As if he knew from himself that he did something. But he didn’t do shit. He is just so wonderful. ‘I think we need to slow our relationship down a little bit’ I said without thinking. Come on Alissa! You practiced this shit. ‘What do you mean?’ he said holding my lower arms. ‘It’s just that..every time I look at you I want to be with you even longer. I need to build those feelings off. It’s like I am depending on you and I don’t want that. I don’t like that. I love you so much Bruno I do. We have known each other for over 3 months now, we see each other every day and we have been dating for 2 of the 3 months. We have so much in common that I am starting to wonder where you were all my life. It’s just that.. I don’t want to be shattered by a relationship AGAIN. And I know you are not like that at all. It’s just that If our relationship will end somehow It will hurt me a lot more than it would hurt you. And I honestly think that Bruno.’ He closed his eyes. I bet he is thinking about it. ‘We have this strong connection from the first day we’ve met. Like we were drawn to each other. Like we were destined to meet like in the fairytales. I just have no idea how I am going to cope with the fact that YOU are going to blow up as an artist one day where everyone is going to ask you questions and everyone is wanting to know your personal life. And you are going on tour all over the fucking world and I won’t be able to go with or whatever. That would change us for the bigger part. And it’s not going to be our faults it is going to be the fault of society. I really think that fame will tear us apart.’ Bruno made a big sigh. One of those sighs where your breathing cracks. ‘and not only that, but our love will tear us apart..people are gonna wanna break us up I know that.’
Tears were falling from my face. Shit. Fuck. Stop crying, get yourself together. It hurts even more saying it than thinking about it. Bruno opened his eyes. They were watery and bloodshot. ‘No..’ he said whispering. ‘I don’t agree with you..’ ‘but I wa-‘ he interrupted me. ‘We are strong enough for all that shit. Do you even realize all the pain and trouble you have been trough? All of that is way worse than what the media has in store for us. I know they are all bitches, and they all want something from you but Alissa, my carrier and my private life are two different things. I don’t want the fame to tear us apart when It hasn’t even started yet. Baby don’t you realize that all I want is you. And all I need is you. You are what helps me stay grounded. Every time I look at you I see where I come from. I see the love of my life and I see what no one else will see in you. Baby. You are amazing just the way you are but I don’t want you to think that I will be all wrapped around the finger of a record label or a manager or whatever. I have my own strings in hands and I won’t let anyone play me. Only you can. I don’t…wanna take things slow with you baby. I am enjoying the feeling of love at such a young age. I am so happy I have found this amazing girl who I can share my feelings with.’ He wiped my tears away. I knew this was going to be difficult. But he is talking me out of it. ‘Don’t cry..’ he said hushing me. I hugged him tightly. I feel like an emotional wreck. Not knowing what I want in life other than Bruno is pathetic to me. I have always been the tough chick. I guess people change. Just like my emotions. They change every 5 minutes like I’m fucking pregnant. I looked at him again. He smiled at me. ‘Alissa we are stronger then you think. Together we could take the heaviest storms. I love you so much. So so so so so so so much! Cause if you’d ever leave me, you better leave some morfine at the door.’ I looked at him confused. ‘It would take a whole lot of pain medication to realize what we used to have. And all of the sudden we wouldn’t have it anymore. Baby you bring the biggest smiles known to mankind on my face. I wouldn’t be able to take a break..or slow things down, I already have the feeling that I have to hold back cause If I’d give you all my love at once we’d both die.’ We chuckled. Man I love him. ‘Well than we could live happily ever after and you could sing with the angels where you belong. Cause I can see your haloooo woohooo.’ Bruno laughed. ‘adorable’ he said grinning. ‘You still need to tell me something’ he said. I looked at him confused. ‘What happened to you when you were at the age of 18 to 20 when you went out to lunch with Joelle..?’ he asked. That question pained me in so many ways. But I had no idea of what he was asking me. ‘W..what?’ I asked. ‘..What happened to you when you were at the age of 18 to 20.’ He asked me again. ‘I understood what you told me I just..don’t know what you’re asking me.’ He frowned. ‘Are you sure?’ I let go of him. ‘Yes I do Bruno, you’re scaring the fuck out of me. I bet I was home as always.’ Bruno sighed. ‘Are you sure you don’t want to tell me anything at all.’ I got mad when he asked that. ‘What the hell Bru? I told you I have no Idea of what you’re talking about, now leave it at that. And no I have nothing else to say than that I love you. With my heart and every other organ in me. I truly do, and now if there is anything you would want to tell me?’ I asked. Bruno looked at me with a pained look on his face. He bit his lip. ‘Baby..when me and Joelle walked in we went out to the boulevard to talk. I had the feeling you were hiding a few things from me that you weren’t going to tell me even if I asked. She told me that I shouldn’t be worried about anything and some other things but we will come back on that later..we were goofing off and..we..Alissa it was a mistake.’ He said. I had to hear the words from him. It just can’t be what I’m thinking he is going to tell me. He wouldn’t. She wouldn’t. ‘Alissa..we..we kissed.’
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